I'm tired of getting laughed at (good naturedly, of course) when well meaning friends and acquaintances ask how work is and I tell them that is going fine, but I am looking forward to clinicals being over so I never have to work as an MA again! This statement from me is usually followed by 'Well then, what are you going to do after you finish?' 'I don't know.' Is my steady, straight-faced reply. (and also where I get laughed at... good naturedly, of course.)
Right now, in this moment, am I living my life where He wants me? Am I living in His presence? Am I, as John Piper so aptly put it, glorifying God by enjoying Him right where He has put me? Or as Eric Ludy says, trusting God to let Him write my life story? Am I completely trusting Him where I am even though I know I've made mistakes and, at times, manipulated my self out of His will?
I feel trapped and backed into a corner. Blindfolded in a sense. Will I panic and struggle for my way? Or will the confusion and lack of sight cause me to strain for the sound of His voice?
All He is asking me to do is trust Him for the next step. Because when it is time for me to move, He will tell me. It will be unmistakably clear, like the pillar of fire in the wilderness. In the mean time, it is my job to be content, and listen.
Easier said than done.
For this season, I will trust Him.
For this day, I will trust Him.
For the next step, I will trust Him.
In this moment, I will trust Him.
I don't need to know where I will end up, I just need to know that I am right where he wants me.
In His will is the grace to complete the task He has commissioned.
In His will, is conformation into His image.
In His will is ultimate fulfillment.
All is found in the center of His will.